Little Girl Lost

Besides Charlotte’s Web there is another book that resonates with me, Leisha Joseph’s Little Girl Lost. I read the book while I was a junior in high school (1999) and it touched the very core of my heart because at the time I was what I called a “baby Christian.” I was still “wet behind the ears” so to speak in regards to having a relationship with Christ.

Leisha’s story engulfed me and I could not stop reading. Maybe because in some ways I saw myself in her lifestory. At a young age, Leisha lost her father and her best friend was her brother, Patch. Leisha’s mother was mentally disillusioned and a drug addict which forced Leisha to rely on herself and seek haven in Patch’s arms. What happens later will alarm every reader. I won’t spill it all because I want you to read the story but Leisha’s story will bring you closer to God and humanity.

Synopsis: Her mother’s boyfriends find their way to Leisha’s bed when she is a child, so the stain of self-violation is imprinted. As an adult, Leisha is brutally attacked in a parking lot by a serial rapist and you will not believe what happens as he puts a gun to Leisha’s head and pulls the trigger more than once. He rapes her and is imprisoned. While there, the rapist threatens to attack Leisha again when he is released. He follows up on his threat and he does  and this time the unimaginable happens. You will be astonished, your heart will drop, but then you will breathe and it shall beat again.

Though I was never raped (as a child nor adult) nor sexually assaulted, I feel I was raped of an enjoyable, normal childhood. I took my daughter to the park yesterday with a friend and I watched as my daughter roamed, played, and frolicked about and I realize that I broke the curse of name calling, beatings, burns, kicks, and slaps that occurred in my childhood.  I could never imagine subjecting my daughter to the life I lived as a child. If anything, I feel it is my earthly duty to protect God’s angel – my child. Why can’t  some mothers see their children in this light? I think in order to love your child as they should be, you should love your child more than you love yourself. That may sound strange, but it is true. It is this selfless love that would fling herself in front of a car, correct a stranger who doesn’t understand the frailties of childhood, confront teachers who call your child, “STUPID,” or other high strung hangers.

I no longer ask God why I had to endure such cruelty at the hands of someone who was supposed to love me and not hurt me. I consider how I have grown in Him and I deal with my past but embrace my future.  God’s plan for my life is unfolding before me and I can be a voice for the silenced. Over 65% of people have been abused in some form throughout their lives, sadly. Oftentimes in life we think that God has forsaken us, but he has a plan for us all. Sometimes we look at the lives of those around us and desire to have their possessions, lives, careers, marriages, etc. but their plan is not our plan. Above all else, God’s plan is even better but in we must have a relationship with God to understand this and for those who don’t, it’s obvious.

Leisha’s faith moved me and it made me realize as a teenager that the heartache, abuse, and pain  that I endured  as a child was not that God had neglected me; he was preparing me for my future in Him. I highly recommend Little Girl Lost to the broken, healed, doubting, faithless souls of the world. After reading Leisha’s book, you will no longer be lost, you shall be found. You’ll discover more about yourself through the eyes of someone else and that alone is AMAZING.

I can’t remember who gave me Little Girl Lost when I was 17 but I am so thankful because it changed my life and awakened my inner-being.  If you were a victim of abuse and you are reading this, I leave you this message: We’re not victims anymore thanks to the power of mercy and forgiveness; we are survivors. Forgiveness is for you and not the other person. God can heal.

4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. 2blu2btru
    May 04, 2011 @ 10:54:21

    I think that both marriage and parenthood were given to us by God to show us how we are to treat all humanity and the love we are supposed to have. It’s why the Bible uses such familial terms to address believers and gives so many examples using family members to teach us.

    I’ve never heard of this book, but it’s going on my reading list. It’s amazing how someone else’s story can move us and inspire us. This is one of the many reasons I want to write books myself.

    Great, thought-provoking post. 🙂


  2. MiMi Atkins
    May 04, 2011 @ 12:26:04

    Thanks 2blu2btru. Who are you? I tried to find your blog but I just get your gravatar. I thank you for your response. The book is decades old but the message is universal, powerful, and transparent. Let me know if you get it. I just bought another copy from Amazon because mine got lost in the move somehow, I suppose.


  3. 2blu2btru
    May 04, 2011 @ 12:48:47

    Hmm, that’s odd. In case this one doesn’t work, my main blog that it’s supposed to link to is I also have a writing blog, a personal blog, and a review blog, LOL.

    I will let you know when I get it. I am thinking of getting Brenda L. Thomas’ Laying Down my Burdens next (heard her on a podcast talking about it and read the Amazon preview–sounds powerful), but it will be next in line. The big book when I was coming along about abuse was “A Child Called It.” The things people have been through, and how they come out of them–God is amazing, I tell you!


  4. MiMi Atkins
    May 10, 2011 @ 09:31:29

    I found you, TruBlu and I subscribed. Thank you!


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